Dear Diary,
I can't tell you what I really want to say this morning because I don't have the time. Plus I'm getting my mind right for a good day. The long and short of it is that I'm gonna keep doing me. And you should keep being the malcontent that you are. It's worked pretty well so far. On the me being me front, I walked 3 miles yesterday morning to blow off my steam from the weigh in. On the you being you front, I'm pretty sure you're aware, but you remain an a**hole.
Sunday, August 7, 2011
Saturday, August 6, 2011
August 6, Day 152, 233.8 lbs, 33.5% bf
You Bastard,
This feels like some sort of cruel joke. Kinda like groundhog day. I keep waking up to the same weight over and over again. I guess I keep doing the same thing too. Thing is, I thought I was getting smarter and working harder. Guess not. Consider this a rhetorical question, because I don't give a f*** about your opinion, but what would you do if you were stuck in one place and every day was exactly the same, and nothing that you did mattered? That about sums it up for me. Or at least it feels like it for the last week or so. But thats ok. The reality is that if I don't lose another pound I'd be happy with what I did over these last 5 months. With that said, f*** reality. I want back into the land of s**t I couldn't imagine 5 months ago. I never thought I could really lose this weight, but I did. I'm now a believer. You on the other hand are still a hater. I would love to stay here and talk with you... but I'm not going to.
This feels like some sort of cruel joke. Kinda like groundhog day. I keep waking up to the same weight over and over again. I guess I keep doing the same thing too. Thing is, I thought I was getting smarter and working harder. Guess not. Consider this a rhetorical question, because I don't give a f*** about your opinion, but what would you do if you were stuck in one place and every day was exactly the same, and nothing that you did mattered? That about sums it up for me. Or at least it feels like it for the last week or so. But thats ok. The reality is that if I don't lose another pound I'd be happy with what I did over these last 5 months. With that said, f*** reality. I want back into the land of s**t I couldn't imagine 5 months ago. I never thought I could really lose this weight, but I did. I'm now a believer. You on the other hand are still a hater. I would love to stay here and talk with you... but I'm not going to.
Friday, August 5, 2011
August 5, Day 151, 233.4 lbs, 35% bf
Dear Douchebag,
I'd be OK with this if I wasn't doing what I was supposed to do, but I am. So I am not OK with this. I'd be kinda mad if I was only expecting to stay where I was, but I wasn't. I'm not mad. I'd be pissed if I expected to have a nice drop after eating right and getting in a good ride last night. I am pissed. But I am also focused. I ate the right things yesterday. My low calorie breakfast sandwich, fruit, fish and brown rice for lunch, chicken and vegetables with just a little rice for dinner and I rode with the EBG for 30 miles. But screw it. I guess that s**t doesn't mean anything anymore, huh? Well I'm still gonna do what I need to do and enjoy my day. So you don't get to frustrate me like you want. You get nothing. You lose! Good day sir!
I'd be OK with this if I wasn't doing what I was supposed to do, but I am. So I am not OK with this. I'd be kinda mad if I was only expecting to stay where I was, but I wasn't. I'm not mad. I'd be pissed if I expected to have a nice drop after eating right and getting in a good ride last night. I am pissed. But I am also focused. I ate the right things yesterday. My low calorie breakfast sandwich, fruit, fish and brown rice for lunch, chicken and vegetables with just a little rice for dinner and I rode with the EBG for 30 miles. But screw it. I guess that s**t doesn't mean anything anymore, huh? Well I'm still gonna do what I need to do and enjoy my day. So you don't get to frustrate me like you want. You get nothing. You lose! Good day sir!
Thursday, August 4, 2011
August 4, Day 150, 232.8 lbs, 34.5% bf
Dear Diary,
This is nothing new. I've been in this position before. Grandma crib, ****** outside of her door. Different day, same s**t... Are you as tired of this replay as I am? Not that I give a f*** about your opinion. The number below 231 is 230, not 233. I'm sick of seeing weights with 23 in front. No!!! I don't want 240 or anything higher. I know those are easy, but I'm going hard. Remember H.A.M.? Then act like it you stupid muthaf***a! Huh? Yeah I lost weight. And? Am I supposed to be happy about that? I was happy with 232 the first time. Not so much the third. Now go tell that f***in scale to get the numbers right before I ride on his punk a**. And I don't mean like the 20+ miles I did with the EBG last night. Oh yeah. I almost forgot. F*** you with a capital d***, a**hole.
This is nothing new. I've been in this position before. Grandma crib, ****** outside of her door. Different day, same s**t... Are you as tired of this replay as I am? Not that I give a f*** about your opinion. The number below 231 is 230, not 233. I'm sick of seeing weights with 23 in front. No!!! I don't want 240 or anything higher. I know those are easy, but I'm going hard. Remember H.A.M.? Then act like it you stupid muthaf***a! Huh? Yeah I lost weight. And? Am I supposed to be happy about that? I was happy with 232 the first time. Not so much the third. Now go tell that f***in scale to get the numbers right before I ride on his punk a**. And I don't mean like the 20+ miles I did with the EBG last night. Oh yeah. I almost forgot. F*** you with a capital d***, a**hole.
Wednesday, August 3, 2011
August 3, Day 149, 233.8 lbs, 35% bf
Dear Scale,
If what you just told me it true, you deserve a big f*** you. I don't think it accurately reflects my actions yesterday so, if it's not true, f*** you anyway. I ate fine. Maybe the timing was off, but not too far off. My lunch was later than I wanted, but everything else was fine. Calorie intake was the usual. Only thing different was the workout. P90X is crazy. I thought I finished Ab Ripper X before, but that had to be a lie. Maybe I just watched the video all the way through, cause I damn sure couldn't do the exercises. My H.A.M. time was more like a S.H.A.M. I made it to the end of the video, but did nothing near the reps they did. That crap was crazy. I'll keep trying it though, but I'm still not ready for that s**t. And you obviously aren't ready to see me succeed. Is 233.8 your new default number? If you had your druthers I'm sure it would be so much higher. I hate you so much right now! Aaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrggggggggghhhhhhh!!!!!!! F*** you viciously.
If what you just told me it true, you deserve a big f*** you. I don't think it accurately reflects my actions yesterday so, if it's not true, f*** you anyway. I ate fine. Maybe the timing was off, but not too far off. My lunch was later than I wanted, but everything else was fine. Calorie intake was the usual. Only thing different was the workout. P90X is crazy. I thought I finished Ab Ripper X before, but that had to be a lie. Maybe I just watched the video all the way through, cause I damn sure couldn't do the exercises. My H.A.M. time was more like a S.H.A.M. I made it to the end of the video, but did nothing near the reps they did. That crap was crazy. I'll keep trying it though, but I'm still not ready for that s**t. And you obviously aren't ready to see me succeed. Is 233.8 your new default number? If you had your druthers I'm sure it would be so much higher. I hate you so much right now! Aaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrggggggggghhhhhhh!!!!!!! F*** you viciously.
Tuesday, August 2, 2011
August 2, Day 148, 231.6 lbs, 32.5% bf
Dear Diary,
Guess what!?! Nope. I'm not quite done with you yet a**hole. I don't have time to do this with you, so I'll just tell you. There are only 29 short days til my birthday. I'd adjusted my goals a while back to reach 35 lbs lost by time I turned 35. That was after thinking I was gonna lose 10 lbs a month. That was way back then. I lost like 13 lbs in the first month I think. I figured it would always work like that. Little did I know that there would be ups and downs along the way. But who gives a f***? I don't and I'm pretty sure you don't either. Oh. Thanks for the confirmation. All I care about now is where I go from here and not returning to that place whence I came. But now I'm so close to 35 with a month to go I think I need to push that goal to 40. The only issue is that this month looks like it's gonna be pretty tough with all of the picnics and gatherings that are filling my calendar. No! How many f***ing times do I have to tell you that you're not invited? People don't like you. I hear it all the time. You have to really work on your language and your presentation. I'm working on my presentation and it's just ok so far. I'll be presenting myself on the beaches in Hawaii short order and I want to look presentable. In order to avoid the pitfalls of August and step up my presentation I'm going to increase the H.A.M. time to try and add in Ab Ripper X from P90X. If I can't walk come Wednesday, you know that I went too damn H.A.M. and I'll go turkey from here on out. I bet you're just gobbling this up. Sorry. Had to do it. Wow!?! How rude. I like it.
Guess what!?! Nope. I'm not quite done with you yet a**hole. I don't have time to do this with you, so I'll just tell you. There are only 29 short days til my birthday. I'd adjusted my goals a while back to reach 35 lbs lost by time I turned 35. That was after thinking I was gonna lose 10 lbs a month. That was way back then. I lost like 13 lbs in the first month I think. I figured it would always work like that. Little did I know that there would be ups and downs along the way. But who gives a f***? I don't and I'm pretty sure you don't either. Oh. Thanks for the confirmation. All I care about now is where I go from here and not returning to that place whence I came. But now I'm so close to 35 with a month to go I think I need to push that goal to 40. The only issue is that this month looks like it's gonna be pretty tough with all of the picnics and gatherings that are filling my calendar. No! How many f***ing times do I have to tell you that you're not invited? People don't like you. I hear it all the time. You have to really work on your language and your presentation. I'm working on my presentation and it's just ok so far. I'll be presenting myself on the beaches in Hawaii short order and I want to look presentable. In order to avoid the pitfalls of August and step up my presentation I'm going to increase the H.A.M. time to try and add in Ab Ripper X from P90X. If I can't walk come Wednesday, you know that I went too damn H.A.M. and I'll go turkey from here on out. I bet you're just gobbling this up. Sorry. Had to do it. Wow!?! How rude. I like it.
Monday, August 1, 2011
August 1, Day 147, 232.4 lbs, 35% bf
Dear Diary,
I had a great day with family and friends yesterday at the fair. No crying kids. Lots of walking and lots of food. Well not lots of food for me. I had some smoked turkey and funnel cake and a great time. So much fried food. It felt like a nightmare. But the stuff was so crazy it was easy to avoid. Fried twinkies, fried kool aid, fried frog legs, fried everything. Didn't touch any of it. My buddy tried the chicken sandwich with krispy kreme jelly filled donuts for the bread. Mistake. He threw it up last night. So I guess I wasn't the only one that lost weight yesterday. I just did mine with the preferred method. I went back to the EBG and rode 28 miles in just under 2 hours while watching Superbad. Yeah. I felt supergood when I was done. F*** you for no reason at all. Ahhh. That felt good too. It's good to get back in the swing of things.
I had a great day with family and friends yesterday at the fair. No crying kids. Lots of walking and lots of food. Well not lots of food for me. I had some smoked turkey and funnel cake and a great time. So much fried food. It felt like a nightmare. But the stuff was so crazy it was easy to avoid. Fried twinkies, fried kool aid, fried frog legs, fried everything. Didn't touch any of it. My buddy tried the chicken sandwich with krispy kreme jelly filled donuts for the bread. Mistake. He threw it up last night. So I guess I wasn't the only one that lost weight yesterday. I just did mine with the preferred method. I went back to the EBG and rode 28 miles in just under 2 hours while watching Superbad. Yeah. I felt supergood when I was done. F*** you for no reason at all. Ahhh. That felt good too. It's good to get back in the swing of things.
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