Dear Diary,
Last night I did the insanity fit test. I made it through, but just barely. I did better than the last time, but when it was all over I felt myself blacking out. I was prepared for it or at least I thought I was. I mean its happened before after I've gotten a good cardio workout in. Its not like I'm in the best of shape, so when I do something my body isn't used to it just shuts down like the a**hole it is. Huh? Its kinda like the blue screen of death on an old Windows PC, or the Red Ring of death on an xbox. Whatever you want to compare the blacking out to, the point is that its almost inevitable. To try to prevent the inevitable, I armed myself with a protein shake as soon as I was done and got into a position where I could breathe. It didn't matter. I could see, and feel, the darkness coming. I tried to fight it. Then I didn't. I know that everyone talks about not going into the light, so I figured the darkness has to be the opposite. I said f*** it and laid back. I was only out for a minute, if that, but it felt like so much more. It felt like my computer was reset or something and I had a clean slate. I was well rested and felt like I was at peace. Here is to making progress. And giving into the darkness. Serenity now... Insanity later. Tomorrow actually. B***h.
No comments:
Post a Comment