April 12, Day 36, 251 lbs

Dear Diary,
I'm so muthaf***ing tired. Its 5 am and I've been up for about 24 hours. Yes a**hole,  I know I have a job so f*** off.  I just finished doing my stuff and if I go to sleep I just know I'm not gonna wake up. Usually by now I'm throwing your punk a** at the alarm clock. Or the crying baby. Whichever is loudest really. Its just what I do. Kinda like you sucking. Its just what you do. I was doing work. Why couldn't I have just done it at the office like a normal person? I'm not sure. Its just been so busy lately. Its always nice to have a lot going on at work. Kind feels like job security. Its like me talking to you. You have job security cause no one else listens to me like you do, so I'd find it hard to replace you. Doesn't mean I haven't f***ing tried to. Remember that time I cheated on you with the post its? I couldn't keep my story together. It was literally all over the place. Post it here, post it there. Then there was the time I got the zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
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