Thursday, March 8, 2012

March 8, 2012, Day 366, 237.2 lbs

Dear Diary,
Happy Anniversary a**hole! A year ago today I decided to eat better. It took a little while longer to decide to exercise, but I eventually got there. And when I did I lost pretty good weight. I've had some ups and downs over the year, but I've kept most of what I lost off. Problem is lately I've had a few more ups than downs. There have been some casualties along the way. Donuts and cake, and all manners of sweets have fallen victim to my fork far too often. Huh? No a**. Who eats donuts with a fork? Yeah I know I said it. Moving on. See this is why I haven't spoken to you in so long. The scale was damaged by the kids so there is no way I can trust the body fat again. Huh? Yeah I'm pretty sure it was Myles too. But I continue to try to do what is right. I've realized that losing weight is like my golf game. It sucks. I can be having a decent day, but then I have a blow up hole and it ruins my round. Huh? Well mulligans don't really transfer to real life. I can't just get a do over and act like I didn't eat those donuts. Also, can you just shut the f*** up and let me finish my story?! As I was saying this is like golf. I have so much potential. I just need to change up my approach. Its a mental game, but it also takes physical discipline. I have my mind right. I mean I don't even think about doing some of the things I did over a year ago. Its just crazy to think that I used to eat a McDonalds 3 times in a day. I haven't been there in forever. I think about calories and healthiness of the things I put into my body. Even though I've gained about 12 back of the 40 I lost, I'm eating much better now. I just need to get the physical part back in line. Huh? Well, yeah I've been exercising most of the time through. Maybe not just with the right intensity or the right moves. I'll get it right though. I'm just gonna keep playing through... What? Did you get that? Playing through? Its another golf reference. Huh? Keep talking s**t and I'm gonna play my foot right through your a**.